Well, we’re just weeks away from welcoming our little boy into the world. It occupies my thoughts hourly, and I am busy nesting, I guess. Cleaning for sure. Making extra cupcake toppers for Etsy. Finishing projects. Stocking up the pantry and frozen meals. Frozen taquitos are high on my list right now. Even bought a few extra sweat pants that I know I’ll be living in.
Also photographing this new little person occupies my thoughts all the time. Deciding what outfits, what blankets, what colors. I’ve learned so much since photographing Jack as a newborn. Wow a lot! and I can’t wait to try again with my little guy. My fear is I’ll be too tired to care, which is what happened with Jack. But I shot anyway, and I’ve got a few that I LOVE, but I feel I can do so much better this time. Plus, this might be my last time with my own newborn. So this go around, I’m having my nieces help me, and I’ll show them what I’ve learned on photographing newborns. I’m so excited! See, I think about it all the time. I have a pile of gear ready to go with us. Hope the truck can fit everything.
I have one idea I’m hoping will work, that I’ve thought long about in the set up. I’ll let you know if it works out. It will involve about three of us and a cooperative sleepy newborn. And I’m THIS close to getting a new lens that I’ve drooled for. I just might be able to order it in time to use with my new baby. So many photographers that I admire love this lens, and I can’t wait to love it too.
So with new baby coming, I’m slowing my photography business for a while. At least I won’t advertise just yet, and will just do sessions from word of mouth. I keep telling myself there’s a time and a season. So that’s why you haven’t seen much client work here, as I decided not to advertise when we moved to Roswell. I’ll save that for when I feel ready to jump back in. Busy this spring and summer, I do not want to be. But it hasn’t stopped me from dreaming about my someday studio space and thinking about all the little babies to photograph. I look forward to it, and it feels good to know exactly what i want to do with my creative self.
For the adoption- paperwork and legal stuff is almost done. Home Study is finishing up. Found out the birth father hadn’t received his pack of papers to sign, so we got our attorney to quickly amend that. We are grateful he is so willing and supportive. This second adoption has been just as perfect, if I dare use that word, as it could ever be. Jack gets a blood brother, and he is so ready to love his brother. We talk about his baby brother coming. And he recognizes things we have “for the baby”. I can’t wait to bring Jack to the hospital to see his brother. There’s a lot of love in that word– Brother.
I think about the baby’s delivery too. That I get to be there this time, if mother nature cooperates. The birth mom has agreed that both Perry and I can be there for the delivery. It means so much to me to be present. I’m not sure why. Maybe because I missed it with Jack, and when we heard his first cry over our cell phone, I just longed to be there to hold him. We still had about 6 more hours to drive. His birth mom kept texting us along the way, wanting to know how close we were, what town we drove threw. And she even texted us our first glimpse of baby Jack. Got to love technology.
I’ve witness one delivery so far, of my dear friend. I was present to photograph, with care, the arrival of their beautiful baby girl. And as I probably will never go through it first hand, I’m grateful for that experience. I think everyone should witness the birth of a human being and feel the emotions.
Well, anticipation is high. Many are praying for a good and healthy delivery. I almost can’t believe this is happening a second time for us. And happening in February, a year after my dad died.
I know with adoption you can expect nothing, but patiently hope for everything. And wait and see the outcome. Pretty much everything is out of our hands. The only thing we could really control was our answer, that “Yes! we would love to adopt your baby.”
